Storytelling | Endless Skies and Extraordinary Gifts

Posted on May 13th, 2013

I love to travel. Especially when it involves flying! And most likely, if the flight is any shorter than two hours, I’ll spend that entire time with my forehead pushed against the window, looking at those “flyover states” below.

As I wrote in an earlier post, I’m traveling to spend time with my best friend who lives down here in Mexico as a school teacher. My flight from PA to TX was interesting enough with lots of turbulence, two storms, big puffy clouds, and checkerboard fields below. But then (after a delay in Houston airport and the flight attendant letting us know we had to wait to find out if our destination airport was closed yet for the evening :-) ) we took off for Mexico into an early evening sky. It was one of the most beautiful flights I’ve been on.

There was a thin layer of purple blue clouds and the city lights below shone through between the gaps. A long golden line stretched across the horizon as a few bright stars lit up the darkening sky. As we headed south, “smoke” from Popocatépetl (an active volcano) broke the horizon and storm clouds close by flashed with lightning. And, if it couldn’t get any more remarkable, the rest of the sky was clear and now even darker, which revealed SO many stars that it looked more like dusting across the sky. I really should have been trying to sleep, and definitely needed a bathroom break, but I just couldn’t pull myself away from the window.

I have never been more inspired by the realization of how small I am.

Sitting in front of such an extraordinary view, as cliché as it sounds, one thing entered my mind: “Wow, I am small“. Don’t read ‘insignificant’, just…small. And I have never been more inspired by the realization of how small I am.

I have been trying to finish Michael Card’s book Scribbling In The Sand for a year now. (The book is phenomenal – I’m just bad at setting aside the time to read). A core theme of the book is about the understanding that as artists (musicians, photographers, writers), we are always Creatives not Creators. We really never create something new. We are here instead to inspire others by creatively re-telling what has already been created. For many of us, this can completely turn our own perception of our talents, our “calling” in life, or our own views of art on its head. But let it be in a good way.

What always happens is that every time I pick up the book I have to retrace a few pages to remember where I am. And in doing so, I found a note written sometime last year when I last read a particular passage (which makes me thankful that I write in books). The passage is as follows (abbreviated).

“In the light of…knowing the truth of who we are, we answer that our giftedness is not our own, it is from our creative Creator God. You and I stand unveiled as the simple recipients of a gift that is beyond ourselves.” (emphasis added)

Below, I had written “If this is not MY gift, but from HIM, then it must be capable of extraordinary things.”

If this is not MY gift, but from HIM, then it must be capable of extraordinary things

And that is why the view out my window was more than just breath-taking, but also, in my favorite way, quietly inspiring. Feeling small, was humbling, yes, but freeing.

To accept that any and all of my talents as gifts from God, my view changes. I’m not the end of my gifts. I’m not the limit to my own art. I could never possibly run out of inspiration or creativity (maybe just look in the wrong place). I have within me a gift from the most brilliant Artist whose work the greats have just told and retold over the ages. I can tap into an endless store of the highest most profound creativity we will ever come across. And He is capable of painting such extraordinary skies. Sitting there looking out my window, realizing I was so small, gave me the excitement to know I had that much to expand into. I am THAT small. There is THAT much more to become because our creative gifts are from Him – and therefore capable of extraordinary things.

Seneca Valley High School Senior Photographer | Lauren F

Posted on May 9th, 2013

Super excited to share this senior session with you! From Zelienople, to Harmony, to SVHS playing fields where her Poms team practices, I had a blast with Lauren on her photo shoot. Lauren started out with Crystal (the amazing makeup artist on my team) for some well deserved pampering and a custom look, then headed into Zelie with me where we met with my lovely assistant Jenna (who patiently holds reflectors and makes sure I don’t get run over while I’m shooting in the street). All this was from about 6pm to 8pm which made for absolutely beautiful evening light.
Lauren is graduating in just a few short weeks and heading off to Penn State for…engineering! I know, right? She’s beautiful AND smart! And I love her style! Thanks Lauren for such a fun shoot and good luck on this next (and very soon) step in life!
Remember, makes sure to head over to my Facebook page for the next 10 days to enter the senior session giveaway!

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A Portrait Session Giveaway

Posted on May 6th, 2013

I can’t believe May is here! Tonight, i’ll be shooting my first senior photoshoot of the season, in 2 days Josh and I will be celebrating our 3rd anniversary, in 3 days I will be on my way to Mexico to visit my best friend, and in 13 days, the winner will be announced for the Senior Session giveaway! Phew that’s a lot!

All these things are super exciting for me and I’ll keep this blog updated throughout the month with all the new and exciting things in my life and photography. Until the, head over to my Facebook page to enter for the 2014 Seniors giveaway!

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Pittsburgh Wedding Photographer | Sewickley Styled Wedding Shoot

Posted on April 30th, 2013

I think an update is in order!

Things have been very busy around here with planning a styled shoot, rebranding, building a new website (coming soon!), and still keeping up with my full time job as a Nanny (oh the adventures of caring for a 2- and 3-yr-old). My mind (and notebooks) has been so full lately of ideas, lists, and more ideas. It was so full though, I lost room for basic memory and… got lost in Walmart. Literally.

But all that brainstorming, lists, and notebook writing paid off on the Saturday when I photographed a styled wedding shoot! The entire shoot was put together by vendors all out of Sewickley, and I couldn’t be more impressed by the amount of incredible talent all found in one small town. Please send some love to the following vendors by visiting their sites and getting to know them a little better – their work and products are amazing!

Special thanks toJenna Hidinger for being my amazing assistant photographer (and assistant everything – she even did a Starbucks run!)

Karrie Hlista – Floral Designs
International Images Ltd – Gallery Location
Crystal Halle – Makeup Artist
Ragged Row – Dress
Antiquarian – Furniture
Spoiled Chics – Accessories

The Jewel Theif – Ring

And another thank you to Phoebe, our lovely model.

Enjoy!

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Getting Personal | Notebooks

Posted on April 10th, 2013

A few weeks back, my car was broken into and my purse stolen. Entire purse. Its about the size of a small child. Inside were valuable things like my wallet (thankfully no credit cards), extra keys, etc. Total value that was stolen was a couple hundred $$. But the first thought that crossed my mind? “Oh no! My NOTEBOOKS!!”

Yes, my notebooks. You know, the 3 notebooks that all together cost me $4.38 on Target’s clearance shelf? But you don’t understand…

I’m a writer. I’m a list maker. I like to sketch. I’m a forget-everything-if-I-don’t-write-it-down. I make list of what I want to write about. I make lists of what I want to do in life. Then I make lists of my lists.

Needless to say, my notebooks are my life. Josh threatened to hold them captive once – my brain would have probably just shut down.

Please don’t laugh, but since I had found notebooks that I really liked (I’m picky), I had gone back to Target to get another set for when I filled up my current ones. So after I lost my original three, I pulled out the new set and sadly stared at the blank pages. I couldn’t believe all those notes and lists and ideas were… gone.

A few days later someone called to tell me they had found my purse on the side of the raod. I drove over to the spot to collet what was left of it with the slightest hope that something might still be inside. Missing, were my wallet, a mag light, and my makeup case (someone please tell me you are just as grossed out by that… seriously, half used makeup?) But NOT missing were three, rain-soaked but still readable, beautiful notebooks. And that was all that mattered.

Yes, they’re color coded. No you may not read them. Yes they will fill up quickly and I’ll be sad when I have to go on the hunt for new ones. But for now I’m happy to have them back.

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Getting Personal | Looking Forward to Spring!

Posted on March 19th, 2013

I love winter.  Yes, its because of Christmas, new fallen snow, and hitting the slopes on my snowboard.  Pink sunsets on sparkling snow remind me of growing up- footprints, sled lines, snow forts, and kids everywhere – and not coming inside till well after dark.  It reminds me of paper bags lining the hallway to catch the melting snow of 9 pairs of boots.  Winter reminds me of hot chocolate and long dark nights that give good excuses to drink more of it.

 

But there’s something more.  There’s something about the white sunlight, the barren trees touching empty skies, and the silence that is so appealing to me.  I know dead trees and empty fields sound far from inspirational but I don’t always look for it to be inspiring either.  Its closer to… comforting.  I know, that still doesn’t make sense.  But, though at times I love big celebrations, fireworks, bonfires, open windows, and bright sunlight, its sometimes all just too…loud.  And sometimes I need silence.

Its reassuring to know I’m allowed to be broken.

 

I guess you could attest it to being an introvert.  But silence and alone time is healing to me.  And not just healing, but reassuring.  Its reassuring to know I’m allowed a winter.  Every year.  I’m allowed to sit in silence, allowed to lose my vibrant colors for a little, and, like the bent and dried out grass in the fields, I’m allowed to be broken.

 

To say 2012 was a hard year is an understatement.  I’m quoting 3rd party, but I heard David Jay say “2012 is a year that I would be happy to package up in a nice little box and light on fire.”  I totally agree…but not really.  I’m not discrediting how hard it was or just forgetting all the things that made it that way.

Instead, I had my winter.   I think Josh and I went into hibernation for January.   I don’t remember doing anything else from that month but going to work and coming home – and it was good.

 

What made me realize all this was that first touch of spring we had last week.  I was on the slopes in 50-60 degree weather getting very sunburnt, snowboarding in a T-shirt (I LOVE March ski time!!).  When we drove back home that evening, it was 70 degrees in our town and we had just hit Daylight savings so the extra long, extra warm evening sparked something.  And I thought “Yes, spring it on its way!!”

 

For some ridiculous reason, I will always pick cold weather over warm weather, snowboarding over beach time.  I’m sad to see winter go in a way because I always feel like its my season.  But wow, I can’t wait for spring.

 

 

Pursuing Dreams | Biggest Fears and Bigger Dreams

Posted on December 17th, 2012

“Our doubts are traitors, and make us lose the good we oft might win, by fearing to attempt.”
-William Shakespeare

 

“Hmm….my biggest fear?  What’s my biggest fear?”  I was reading aloud a question from an email while driving home tonight with Josh.

“Fear of failure.”  He didn’t miss a beat.

 

Because its true.  And he’s listened to all I have said and talked about and analyzed and cried over and he knows at the root of it is this fear that I just won’t make it.  That I’m going to end up the going the wrong way SOMEWHERE and not know how to get back.

 

“You’ll avoid doing something, pushing further, just to make sure you can also avoid failing”.  (Thanks Josh.  Sometimes I wonder if you know me better than I do.)

 

I hope I’m not the only one like this – the only one completely paralyzed by one awful “what if” staring back at them.  Thanks to a world of people I am starting to find – photographers, artists, entrepreneurs of all fields that have freely shared their own biggest fears, I’m starting to think that no, I’m not alone.

 

And I’m certainly not where I was before with this fear.  If I was, this blog post would not be going up.  If I was still completely paralyzed by this fear, there wouldn’t be any blog posts up.  If I was still operating simply to avoid failure, I would not be heading up to Connecticut tomorrow to spend two days with Justin and Mary, Showit Live and five other amazing photographers to dive head first into this!

 

See, I avoided moving forward to avoid running into failure – or if I did move forward, I’d be tiptoeing, like walking on thin ice waiting for that step that will just cave in.  Failure was optional, right?  So I preferred to pick the option where I didn’t meet it even if that meant letting life just go by.

 

But I ran across a quote looking through some old blog entries of Justin and Mary’s (that’s not stalker-ish is it?) that changed my outlook on failure from being something that was optional to ….necessary.  That may not sound like such a great thing to discover but it changed.  my.  world.

 

“Supposedly Edison came up with over a thousand combinations before making the light bulb….. I think that things really worth finding, like light bulbs, are at the end of a thousand so called failures.” Jesh De Rox

 

Before I get ahead of myself, I want to bring something else to light that I had to learn along side this.  Your dreams have to be big enough.  And if you are still so afraid of the failures, then maybe you haven’t really dreamt yet.  It is the things really worth finding that are worth the failures along the way.

Your dreams have to be big enough.

 

When this clicked, I got mad.  Yup.  I got mad at Failure and how long I’d waited now to reach those things really worth finding.  And I decided my only option was to simply dream bigger.

 

So I did.  Or I thought I did.  And every day there was a new challenge to dream more.  Then one day, J&M posted a chance to win a seat to their Big Next introduction to be filmed live from their living room.  I stared at my screen for a good 20 minutes arguing between Failure and Bigger Dreams, till Bigger Dreams won out.  If I’m to meet with a thousand failures anyway, I better start moving along with my thousand attempts.

 

Even though I’m sure I’ve looked at the “Winners Announced” entry eighty times already, I still can’t get over the fact that my face, my name, and my small little dream are posted there right next to everyone else.  I can’t believe that by tomorrow evening, I’ll be headed up to beautiful New England and sitting down over coffee to talk photography, business, and everything in between with an amazing group of photographers!  I can’t believe that I am finally walking full stride into a “no turning back” moment.

 

I’m done waiting.  I’m done hesitating.  For the good I might win, the things really worth finding, and these small little dreams that are just getting bigger everyday, I’m ready to start making my light bulb and meeting my fear straight on.

 

 

***To tune in for these amazing live sessions, go to Justin and Mary’s blog starting December 17th to the 19th.

 

***Special thanks to Pittsburgh Lenses for my equipment for this trip!

 

 

 

 

Succop Conservancy Wedding | Crystal and Michael

Posted on November 30th, 2012

We all showed up for the rehearsal the day before and it was a bitter cold and cloudy day.  And since its Pittsburgh, I’m sure it was raining too.  But the following day turned out to be warm, beautiful, breezy and sunlit offering the perfect weather for great outdoor shots against the changing fall colors and the Conservancy’s beautiful historic mansion.  From the hand-made gown from her mother, a grandmother’s jewelry, and some of the best toasts from friends and family, the day was full of tears, lots of laughter, and a celebration of family, history, and love.

 

Business | Waiting For “We” and Getting Out of the Box

Posted on October 7th, 2012

So, the Millennial Generation.  Read the experts and half will say its All About Me and the other half will says its All About We.  I agree.  Its both!

I could write a million words on all the disturbing facts that show how overly Me-oriented this generation is – my generation.  But although the other half of this generation’s personality, the We focused part, sounds great, communal, and charitable, there are just as many concerning attributes to consider.

When The Experts refer to the MG as the We generation, it does not really contradict the Me description.  It refers to the fact that  “Millennials value peer feedback because of growing up in an educational system that focused on group work in teams rather than individual study. They were taught that two (or three or four) heads were better than one, and are used to running their ideas by others in order to come up with the best possible solution. Because of this you…are selling to everyone they have ever met whose opinion they respect.” -Lienne StevensThis goes far beyond just following fads.  This is FB, the Like button, Twitter, Instagram, Pinterest, and every other social site out there.  There’s a ‘social’ aspect to everything – even weather websites(??)!

Granted, there are benefits to both the Me aspect (more on that later) and the We aspect.  Seeking advice, experience, an outside view of your life, or first-hand account of a service can be beneficial.  There’s no doubt about it.  But there comes a point when whatever you are pursuing becomes crippled by the need to pursue the status quo, that outside opinion, or the answer to “What is everyone else doing?”  As Justin and Mary Marantz put it “If you ever find yourself asking, what am I supposed to do, what’s everyone else doing, you’re probably already on the wrong track.”  Again, there are benefits to taking account of what everyone likes and dislikes.  But it’s like reading a health magazine – too much of anything causes cancer.

The reason I’m sharing all this is because last night, sitting in the midst of a book on photography lighting, my college textbook and study notes, and my notebook waiting for a new blog entry, (a lot of books), I had yet another meltdown as to where I was in life and why I was not where ‘everyone else’ was.  How I should have gone to that first college, how I could have been done by now, how I could have started a business at this date, or moved to X when I was 20, or if I had been told all that THEY had been told and given all the opportunities that THEY were given I would be where they are.  Doing what they are doing.  Running their business or their lives that way.  Owning the equipment they own.  Flashing the degree they have.  And in my meltdown I sat trying to think up ways to get ‘back on track’ to reach the destination of …them.

In walks Josh.

“Life is not a classroom.”  This sentence communicated all I needed to hear.  Why it made so much sense to me is that I am a school-lover.  I would choose being in a classroom the rest of my life if that were on the menu.  Josh knows this, and also knows that why I love school and studying and tests is that it all fits into a box.  Everyone is studying the same material, everyone is using the same textbook, and everyone is judged as successful the same way.  If I get 98 on a test, I can hold onto my concrete, A-Z thinking, and sigh a relieved “I made it”.

But that’s not life.

And that’s certainly not the way to run an art or humanities based business.  “Why do we want to differentiate ourselves from the competition?  The main reason is this: if I am just one of many photographers out there shooting weddings, then the primary reason my clients select me as their wedding photographer is price.  But, if I differentiate myself from the competition in both style and technique, my clients will seek me out for those differences…” – David Ziser.

That what makes me, me, is what has the potential to change lives.

I am not advocating “Art for Arts Sake”, anything goes, or “There is no bad art, just different”.  I’m sure this’ll make somebody mad, but I don’t hold those statements as anywhere close to the truth.

What I am trying to portray is the idea that success is much harder to measure than I would like.  And that I am an obvious product of the We generation (and Me part too, believe me).  That there are benefits to the Me attributes of my gen, (in OH-SO-SMALL bites) and those benefits are when we take account of who we are, where we came from, and what we want, and believe that we, in our truest form, is needed in this world.  That what makes me, me, is what has the potential to change lives.  That where I am, and finding my own path that is not a quiz I could study on, is how I can measure success.

As Josh said, in all love, leaning forward across my books with his slightly raised eyebrows and look that said Common, now…

 “Get out of the box.”